So for the last couple of days, i have been avoiding looking into the bits of work that i have been given to do over the next couple of weeks alongside the revision that needs to be done for both my resits and exams that make up the second half of my AS levels and as much as i would like to say that i will get them done in good time, chances are that i won't, or at least not to a great standard.
Reasons behind this are relativly simply, first of all is my habit for procrastination that i have repeatedly bemoaned over that last few posts, mainly because of how frustrating it is when my brain wants to work but my body does not. However the other element at play is my inherant lack of concentration for extended periods of time, which went mixed with procrastination lead to a dangerous mix of laziness and inability to complete tasks to a decent level. These problems have become the bane of my life, but i have no idea how to combat them and my pride prevents me from asking for help (something that is beginning to endager the quality of my college work) and this has lead to me developing a very depressive and negative view of the world.
I have no problems acknowledging these issues and talking about them as i know they exist and that they are severly afflicting me, but my attitude towards how i many appear to other people prevents me from seeking help, above all else i would never want someone to pity me and "look down" upon me, even if it was in a "positive" way such as wishing to help because i may seem in need even when i myself refuse to see it. Todays blog has turned way more personal than i would have planned, but i felt i needed to get those issues off of my chest and out into the world at least peliminarily so i can feel like im making some sort of headway in sorting it out. So if by chance anyone actually reads these damn things (i doubt it, but oh well) leave a comment on how you deal with procrastination/laziness and try and give me an idea of how i can go about sorting this problem out, so far none of my questions have been answered, but to hell with it, i need to do something......anything...... :S
Question: how do you deal with putting something off?
DFTBA
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