Darwin's famous theory of evolution states that the main principle of life is "survival of the fittest" or those with the strongest characteristics that allow them to live in their enviroment will continue to thrive while those less well suited will eventually die out. I have come to the conclusion that if the same principle is applied to college life and the education system then i am, in one word, screwed.
I've never been a strong willed individual, I have strong opinions on certain topics and i'm not afraid to voice them as needs must but i'm also very submissive, I don't tend to stand up to people and stay quiet when someone voices a view that I disagree with. I also tend to be very apathetic in my life and in most of the ventures I undertake, which inevitably ends up with them failing due to me being unable to put a decent driving force behind them. This leads to me not being very successful in social situations, particularly in reference to college, where im unable to hold a steady conversation with someone without the support of someone else to prop up the conversation when it begins to fail. As you can probably imagine this has been a major contribution as to why ive never had a girlfriend.
But despite this depressing diatribe, there is some light at the end of this dark tunnel, based around the fact that Darwin's famous "survival of the fittest" phrase is actually a mis-quote of what he originally said in his book The Origin of Species which was "survival of the best fit". This might seem incredibly similer to the previous statement, but it is in fact inexorably different from "survival of the fittest" which means that those with the strongest characteristics will survive, whereas "survival of the best fit" means that those with the characteristics best suited to the enviroment they are in will be the ones that survive. Now I can tell you for the fact that this doesn't hold much weight for me as i'm not an academic person, but i know my way throught the education system and how it works. I also know that when I find my niche spot within society someday, with people who actually can understand and empathise with me as they share similer viewpoints and lifestyles.
Sure its a long shot, but right now its all i've got.
DFTBA
Monday, 31 January 2011
Monday, 10 January 2011
The Doorway
Seeing as Francisco got all philosophical and poetic on his most recent vlog, i thought i might as well put my own little contribution down here as part of my new year takeoff, im not too why i wrote this, its a bit depressing, but enjoy anyway.
Shadows dance across my eyes, days flit and pass without merit or success
telling the story of a man who is not truly there
My eyes are wide and senses engaged, yet nothing of true spirt is shown
I am content to sit in lonelyness, observing the world through the keyhole of life's door
I sometimes push at the door, screaming in rage and frustration at what i see through my portal
But the door is indifferent, it does not care for me or my suffering
it only opens for those of elegence and power, something of which I have neither
As much as I try i cannot sway the door nor overcome it and therefore must resign myself to attempting to communicate with those whom i observe through my gateway
Sometimes i am able to pass a note through the door, a few words of wisdom for a waning soul
whom is in need of comfort and support, somthing i cannot give
My idea of the world is a sour one, a bittersweet apple that cannot be enjoyed even by the most hungry
and I am afraid, of my existance having ended never having passed through the great archway and truly experiancing life
The faces i see, some of happiness, some of pain, all seem to read the same
They do not see me nor my plight
I am but another shadow to them, another partisan on the journey of life, of no significance
nor of any use, I have no skill nor talent, my mind remains in fantasy, or worlds that do not exist
But there are those who see me, trapped as I am
and I hope that someday soon, i will gain admitance to that great vault of souls and happiness will become my world
I yearn to experiance it, but cannot concieve how feels, smells or sounds
The doorway is my world, always has been, always will be
hmmm, well the jury's out on that one i think, let me know what you think in the comments below.
DFTBA
Shadows dance across my eyes, days flit and pass without merit or success
telling the story of a man who is not truly there
My eyes are wide and senses engaged, yet nothing of true spirt is shown
I am content to sit in lonelyness, observing the world through the keyhole of life's door
I sometimes push at the door, screaming in rage and frustration at what i see through my portal
But the door is indifferent, it does not care for me or my suffering
it only opens for those of elegence and power, something of which I have neither
As much as I try i cannot sway the door nor overcome it and therefore must resign myself to attempting to communicate with those whom i observe through my gateway
Sometimes i am able to pass a note through the door, a few words of wisdom for a waning soul
whom is in need of comfort and support, somthing i cannot give
My idea of the world is a sour one, a bittersweet apple that cannot be enjoyed even by the most hungry
and I am afraid, of my existance having ended never having passed through the great archway and truly experiancing life
The faces i see, some of happiness, some of pain, all seem to read the same
They do not see me nor my plight
I am but another shadow to them, another partisan on the journey of life, of no significance
nor of any use, I have no skill nor talent, my mind remains in fantasy, or worlds that do not exist
But there are those who see me, trapped as I am
and I hope that someday soon, i will gain admitance to that great vault of souls and happiness will become my world
I yearn to experiance it, but cannot concieve how feels, smells or sounds
The doorway is my world, always has been, always will be
hmmm, well the jury's out on that one i think, let me know what you think in the comments below.
DFTBA
Saturday, 1 January 2011
New Year, New Changes
Happy New Year Everyone! :)
Over the coming year i intend to make this place full of my thoughts and feelings, so be prepared for a journey and always remember, the journey of a thousand miles begins with but a single step.
Over the coming year i intend to make this place full of my thoughts and feelings, so be prepared for a journey and always remember, the journey of a thousand miles begins with but a single step.
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