So i spent a good deal of time today trying to create a decent background for my YouTube page using GIMP and eventually gave up in frustration at being unable to comprehend how to exactly get the images to do what i wanted them to do. Sure i know the basics of cropping, rotating and filling and all that malarky but the thing that seems to trip me up all the time time (both in GIMP and Photoshop) is this concept of layering and how you can get images to slot into each other so that they look smooth and not some images just pasted next to each other. If anyone can give me some tips on how this works and how to get it working proporly, it would be appreciated, but the reason behind this story is that it made me contemplate the notion of limits and whether there are real such things or if it is simply a psychological construct of our minds to help us feel comfortably with opting out of difficult tasks.
This feeling of limits and not being able to surpass them is one im all to familier with, with my seeming inability to learn how to use graphic manipulation software and my lack of motivation to learn to play my instruments makes for it appearing to me that i have a wide range of limits that seem to block my attempted development of a skill no matter how trivial and simple it seems. I know that some people are just natural apt and creative and expressive things such as Art and Music, but i find this continuing barrier preventing me from progressing in seemingly every direction is getting kind of ridiculous, surely i can't rubbish at everything, right? Its one of the most frustrating things in my life alongside me seeming perfected skill of procrastination which beguiles and boggles me to no end.
Outside of the creative arena, i see to be at a brick wall when it comes to mathematics, something which is of extreme annoyance to me considering i wish to persue a career in Physics and therefore my lack of prowess with maths has left me at a sever disadvantage. There are potential reasons as to why i am like this, i was tested for Dyslexia when i was younger but i only seemed to display minor symptoms of the disorder and therefore was not considered to have it, but the problems have persisted since then and i wonder sometimes if i should have this looked into more carefully by professionals..... :S other possibilites include things such as Dyspraxia and Negative Narcissism Disorder, but that starts to fall down the road of self diagnosis which is never a good road to go down, particularly if you are concerned about what you might have.......
Question: Do you believe in limits?
DFTBA
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